Monday, July 9, 2012

This past week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life...learning to really trust God with my heart and trust His faithfulness on a  It's so easy to think we know what's best for our life, or what's going to make us the happiest...and it's scary to let go and give something to God not knowing if He'll bring it back...<3  I know in my mind that He can be completely trusted with everything...and in the past God has really given me the strength to live it out.  But believing and trusting that with my heart...and not just my mind...well, that's been a lot harder this past week.  This past week trusting God and giving everything to Him has been SO hard. I guess when it involves the heart...which is the deepest part of us that shouldn't be a surprise. God's been gently telling me, "Monica, I created your heart...*I* created your heart...*I* was the one who taught your heart to love, to find joy, to find ME, to hear LOVE ME, to claim my promises...Monica, you can trust Me with your heart.  I'll take good care of it...because I DIED for your heart. Monica, has my faithfulness ever failed you?  No...never...and My faithfulness will not fail you now."  And because HE created my heart...I can put my TRUST in Him...even when it's hard.  "...because of MY HOPE in the PROMISE made by God..."~Acts 26:6 This is how I stand firm, and this is how I don't lose hope. My HOPE is in Jesus...the One who created and holds my heart...even when it's hard...even when the tears flow...even when I completely don't understand what is going on...and even when I'm feeling a deeper pain than I've ever felt before...I can and will chose to trust the ONE who created my heart and died for me. My HOPE in Him will not be disappointed. <3  

The words to this song have really been blessing my heart...I've had this song on repeat for days:

"Blessings" (By Laura Story)

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

"You are never alone.  In your heart of hearts, in the place where no two people are ever alike, CHRIST is waiting for you.  And what you never dared hope for springs to life."~Roger of Taize

Alright, to anyone who might read this.  Keep pressing in as you learn to trust Him with YOUR HEART just like I'm learning to trust Him with mine. :)  Blessings on you and this journey we call life.


"Live like you'll die tomorrow, die like you'll live forever. Love like you'll leave tomorrow, knowing that love lasts forever."~Rich Mullins


  1. Thanks Monica. Perfectly understanding what you mean, and blessed to read it.

  2. Very encouraging. Been praying for you, Monica. God bless you and your family. :)

  3. Thank you, Hannah and Luke for your encouraging words and prayers! <3

  4. Praying for you all, Monica!


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