Saturday, April 13, 2013

Thoughts on Complaining

This past week thoughts filled my mind...that could be labeled more like "complaints". :-/  And God definitely convicted me tonight during my devotions.  

Picture the Israelites...God had done SOOOOOOO much for them!  He had worked a MIRACLE and brought them OUT of Egypt...He again worked a MIRACLE and caused the Red Sea to part allowing them to cross...He AGAIN worked a MIRACLE and took out their enemies in closing the Red Sea up.  And once again, God worked a MIRACLE and sent them food...out of nowhere!  Over and over again, they saw and experienced God's love and provision for them...and yet...here we find them...in Numbers 14:2, "And all the children of Israel complained against Moses and Aaron, and the whole congregation said to them, "If only we had died in the land of Egypt!  Or if only we had died in this wilderness!  Why has the Lord brought us to this land to fall by the sword, that our wives and children should become victims?...."

It's like..."Okay, People!!  Don't you know that God wants to do another miracle for you?  He delights in you and WANTS to give you the land flowing with milk and honey...but you need to trust Him.  Have you already forgotten all the miracles that He did for you?" Sadly, just a few of them did...the rest had to reap the consequences of complaining.

Of course, in hindsight, everything always makes more sense...and it's easy for us to look at them and be like..."wow, you people weren't very smart to stop trusting God after everything He did for you."  

And yet...how often is that me??  How often is that you?  After ALL the incredible miracles that Jesus has done for me over and over and over again....how often do I find myself questioning His goodness, His love or His provision when a new challenge faces me. Oh, Monica...how *LIKE* an Israelite you sadly are. 
For me...the complaining has to do with my health.  Lord, if only I was healthy so I could do all these things I want to do for you!  Lord, if you would just take this pain away!  Lord, why have you let me be sick for 8 years?

The past 5 weeks I've been battling a pretty severe infection in my gut...it's left me losing about 15-20 pounds...so all my clothes are pretty baggy right now.  I've been in a tremendous amount of pain almost constantly...and although I am super hungry...I can't eat hardly anything right now.  It's given me a set back with the Lyme Disease Treatment and has left me feeling pretty discouraged.  And yet, God is so faithful to remind me thru His Word that yes, even now, HE CAN BE TRUSTED. <3   After the Israelites did all their complaining God said, "How long will these people reject Me?  And how long will they not believe Me, with all the signs which I have performed among them?" ~Numbers 14:11  Tonight, I felt like that was God talking to me... "Oh Monica, how long will it take for you to fully TRUST ME with this?  Have you forgotten everything that I have done for you in the past?  Have you forgotten my love for you?"

Oh, Lord, forgive me for my unbelief!  Forgive me for my complaining spirit! Forgive me for not trusting You enough. <3 Jesus, YOU gave every last drop of blood for me... I owe you nothing less. <3  

In Numbers 15...Six times this phrase is written, "a sweet aroma to the Lord."..."a sweet aroma to the Lord."..."a sweet aroma to the Lord." etc.  It was regarding different sacrifices that would bring forgiveness and restoration between the Israelites and God.  It was a "sweet aroma" to Him.  Oh Jesus, may my life...may my words...may my every action be a "sweet aroma" to You. <3  Please do not allow me to develop a complaining attitude...instead, fill me with an "attitude of gratitude"...and spirit of joy and thankfulness for ALL you have done for me.  And when those new challenges arise...like 5 weeks of constant, horrible stomach pain...and the temptation to start complaining arises in me...FILL ME WITH MORE OF YOU!  More of You, Jesus....so that I can keep trusting, keep hoping, and keep believing.  You are GOOD and you are my GOD.  No matter what happens to me in this life, you are in control...and all you do, is good.  Oh, how I love you!  Complaining is a sin...and sin saddens your heart.  Please keep me from anything that would sadden Your heart. 


Just a few thoughts from my devotions tonight! :)  

Love Always,
Monica




P.S. Updates on my Lyme Disease Journey at www.LymeHope.org  :) 

2 comments:

  1. Aww... Precious Girl! Love you so much! This spoke to my heart <3 Praying for you!

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    1. Love you, too, Lauren! <3 Thanks for your prayers.

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