Saturday, June 15, 2013

  God started convicting my heart of some things this morning....it was on my mind and heart all day...and then tonight, especially after family devotions, it's hitting me even harder. <3  I'm feeling incredibly lethargic tonight and Mom just hugged me and said she thinks I have a fever....so I'm not sure that I'll be able to accurately define this post very well cuz my mind feels so heavy with "fever-confusion".  But it just hit me so hard this morning what a precious, yes very hard, but PRECIOUS season this is in my life right now.  A season where I am pretty much allowed unlimited time (except for health treatment interruptions) with JESUS. <3 The Lover of my Soul, my Savior, my Dearest Friend and my Jehovah Rapha.  God's given me this precious time of REST to spend time with Him...in His Word and *Prayer*...and yet, how often do I choose other things over Him?  Yes, they are GOOD things that I choose...even GREAT things...But are they the BEST things? <3  How often am I choosing "GOOD" things over Prayer...and His Word?

  This has always been one of my favorite passages from Scripture...and tonight Jesus really laid it heavy on my heart with conviction:

"Fear not, Daniel (Monica), for from the FIRST DAY that you SET YOUR HEART to understand and HUMBLED yourself before your God, **your words have been heard**, and I have come BECAUSE OF YOUR WORDS.  The Prince of the kingdom of Persia withstood me twenty-one days, but Michael, one of the chief princes, came to help me, for I was left there with the kings of Persia, and came to make you understand what is to happen..." ~Daniel 10:12-14  

On THE VERY FIRST DAY that Daniel started praying...because of Daniel's prayer...Jesus answered! <3  Daniel didn't see the answer immediately...there was a spiritual battle that had to take place...but as Daniel was praying...the answer was coming!! And Daniel didn't give up! The prayers that I feel like giving up on praying...the people that feel like prayers aren't affecting...the struggles in my own personal life...the unanswered questions and direction...Jesus HAS ALREADY answered...and His answer is coming...it's on it's way.  But I must not give up the battle of praying... <3

"There never was and never will be a believing prayer left unanswered." ~McCheyne

I know that Jesus has called me to be a prayer warrior right now...and yet, I have been falling so short in this area.  Prayer is exhausting!  Why?  Because you are literally entering the *spiritual* battlefield.  I heard a quote once that said something like this, "Satan will fight you more when you pray than any other thing you do."  Why?  Because prayer spells his defeat!  He is no match against our Jesus. And yet, somehow...Jesus has set things in place, where...even tho He has the power to do anything...He sometimes waits for our desperation in prayer to answer.   

A few years back my prayer for the year was, "Lord, teach me to pray" ~Luke 11:1~ I loved to pray...but knew so little about really truly battling in prayer at the time.  And, as we just saw in Daniel 10:12-14....JESUS ANSWERED MY PRAYER...as He always does....what He did for Daniel, He did for me.  He sent mentors into my life who were some of the biggest prayer warriors I have ever met!  The faithfulness and time they spend on their knees crying out to God for people amazed me...they taught me SO much about the importance of faithfulness in prayer. <3  They did a prayer Bible study with myself and other girls.  God used them to teach me how to pray. <3

Their passion rubbed off on me for so long....and then...lately, I'll be honest...I STILL love praying...but I haven't been nearly as faithful with it as I should be.  I haven't been nearly as disciplined at just spending time at His feet listening...like Mary.  I've probably been more like a Martha lately...doing GOOD things...but not the BEST things. <3 

Another quote I heard at one time went something like this, "To someone who prays in faith unanswered prayer is simply evidence that the answer is that much closer." 

Oh, Lord...forgive me for not being the faithful prayer warrior I know YOU have called me to be.  Forgive me for not battling in prayer for those I know on the front lines on the mission field right now.  Show me how to use every minute of each day doing exactly what YOU have called me to do. <3  Balance my life the way You see best. <3  Don't let me give up on prayers I KNOW you want to answer...just because I don't see the answer...doesn't mean it's not coming.

"Much Prayer, Much Power,
Little Prayer, Little Power,
No Prayer, No Power."

"And He told them a parable to the effect that that they ought *always* to PRAY and NOT.LOSE.HEART." ~ Luke 18:1

"Down on my knees...I learned to stand."

"Don't pray when you FEEL like it.  Have an appointment with the Lord and KEEP IT." ~Corrie ten Boom

"Men of prayer must be men of steel, for they will be assaulted by Satan even before they attempt to assault his kingdom." ~Leonard Ravenhill

"No man is greater than his prayer life.  The pastor who is not praying is playing; the people who are not praying are straying.  Poverty-stricken as the church is today in many things, she is most stricken here, in the place of prayer.  In the matter of the New Testament, Spirit-inspired, hell-shaking, world-breaking prayer, never has so much been left to so few.  For this kind of prayer there is no substitute.  We do it-or we die." ~Leonard Ravenhill

"O Brother, pray; in spite of Satan, pray; spend hours in prayer; rather neglect friends than not pray; rather fast, and lose breakfast, dinner, tea and supper- and sleep too- than not to pray.  And we must not talk about prayer, we MUST PRAY in right earnest.  The Lord is near.  He comes softly while the virgins slumber." ~Andrew Bonar 

"The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.  Elijah was a man with a nature like ours, and he prayed earnestly that it would not rain; and it did not rain on the land for three years and six months.  And he prayed again, and the heavens gave rain, and the earth produced its fruit. "~James 5:16-18

"Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father.  And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.  If you ask anything in My name, I will do it." ~John 14:12-14

"There is a general kind of praying which fails for lack of precision.  It is as if a regiment of solders should all fire off their guns anywhere.  Possibly somebody would be killed, but the majority of the enemy would be missed."~ Charles Spurgeon

"He prays not at all who does not press his plea." ~ E.M. Bounds

"God may delay, but He ALWAYS comes." ~ Martin Luther

"Our praying needs to be pressed and pursued with an energy that never tires, a persistency which will not be denied, and a courage that never fails." ~ E.M. Bounds

"I will not let You go until You bless me." ~Genesis 32:26

"There is no power like that of prevailing prayer-of Abraham pleading for Sodom, Jacob wrestling in the stillness of the night, Moses standing in the breach, Hannah intoxicated with sorrow, David heartbroken with remorse and grief, Jesus in sweat of blood.  Such prayer PREVAILS. It turns ordinary mortals into men of power.  It brings power.  It brings fire.  It brings rain.  It brings life.  It brings God." ~Samuel Chadwick

 Tears fill my eyes as I read thru all the quotes I've collected over the years on prayer and realize how short I have been falling in my prayer life the past several months....  Oh yes, I have been praying daily for sure...but there's a difference between praying...and REALLY BATTLING in prayer.  And it's the latter that I have been lacking. :-(

"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise." ~Psalms 51:17

Tonight...I am once again...falling on my face before God...asking His forgiveness and thanking Him for the conviction He brought tonight. <3  Prayer is something I cannot and must not neglect. <3 Because, for me personally, especially during this season of my life where much free-time allows for it...it is what He has called me to do. <3

Thank, You, Jesus for the reminders today...for your gentle conviction...for your soft rebuke, for your beautiful forgiveness and the chance to always start fresh! <3

Today started 9 straight days of strong antibiotic shots...in my...I won't say where...but let's just say it's going to be difficult sitting down for the next 10 days or so. ;)  It's going to be a long next 9 days with how very, very sick I am already feeling from just one shot.  All the intense burning pain in my muscles from the Lyme Die Off is already so severe it's hard to move.  Thanking Jesus that the medicine is working....but may my spirit be able to use this time of what I'm guessing will be 9 days of complete bed rest to PRAY.  To join the ranks of HIS front line soldiers....praying for HIS victory in my country, my life, my family, my friends and those who do not yet know Him. <3 May my focus be not on the intense physical pain...but on the GIFT OF PRAYER. <3

Wow...I thought this was gonna be a short post! ;)  LOL. Oh, well...writing all of this helped solidify it in my heart. <3

I love you, Jesus!  Please keep teaching me how to pray! <3  Thank You, for not giving up on me.

Love Always,
 Your Daughter,
Monica





2 comments:

  1. Needed this tonight!! Thanks for posting this Monica <3

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    1. Awww...praise the Lord! Love you so much dear Lauren! <3

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